I miss discipline & schedules

I've always been a very disciplined person.  I like schedules and structure.  When I was in highschool I played 2 varsity sports, was an honors society student, had a job, and very active social life.  In college, I never slept because I was always in the theatre at class, in rehearsal, teching, directing, or discussing our craft with my fellow actors.  After I graduated, I was going out on auditions, going out in NYC on budget, working 2 jobs and in a serious relationship.  When I moved in with my parents the summer of 2010 I was commuting from NJ to NYC everyday, trying to make a long distance relationship work, and running 3 miles in the morning, walking 20 miles everyday, and cycling 30-45 minutes at night, and in the first round of P90x.  I was literally in the best shape I've ever been in.

So, a busy schedule and life is where I flourish.  Which is something I started to struggle with when my mom got diagnosed with cancer.  Suddenly my busy schedule STOPPED.  I quit my NYC job, my plans to move to LA were terminated, and all exercising ended because I spending all my time in the hospital.

Fast forward to 3.5 years later and I'm in the worst shape of my life with hardly a social life.  Things need to change.  It's been a serious struggle with myself, but I've recently realized that all the things that made me ME, ended when my mom got sick.  Everything I do now are all new habits that developed after that, and while I've done a lot...I'm a full time voiceover talent, I live in a beautiful part of the country, and I'm a homeowner...I still feel unrecognizable to myself sometimes.

Well internet...I'm declaring it here and now...it's time for a rediscovery of all the things that used to be a part of my life.  #doingit